as anti-corporation as i am, i really do like starbucks. i *splurged* tonight on a venti green tea blackberry frap-a-whatever and it was awesome. it reminded me of green tea ice cream, but better. speaking of green tea, kim and i went to oasis world market yesterday and i bought bok choy and wasabi and it momentarily cured me of my "i want to be anywhere but in america." jen is in central asia, the interns are in serbia and macedonia, i watched the constant gardener for the second time this week and a whole lot of people die from an earthquake in indonesia. all i want to do is go and help and take photos and raise awareness of how big the world is and how big God is. and i'm stuck here. well, i'm overreacting--i shouldn't say stuck because God really is pouring out blessing with new friends and new opportunities and way too many part time jobs and now dancing with days of grace. but still, my heart is so stirred. jeff kept asking me what i wanted to do with my life. he's so good at that. i said take photos of kids in africa and make a book or somehow riase awareness of what is going on there. if only someone would pay me to do that!! so today i went to b&n to "study" for my job interview, which is in...well...8 and a half hours...i had to read up on my mental illnesses in the DSM-IV, because since it's been a while since i've been out of tekoa and all the pyscho-blablabla, i need to sound competent in the interview. well i wanted to reward myself for studying because they might as well have written the DSM in old english it's so hard to understand. anyways, i found some photo books and some business books and a book showcasing all theses cool cards these supercool designers made. it was supermotivating for me as a *small* business owner, but overwhelming as well because i pretty much am on my own and have no clue what i'm doing. but anyways, i spent way too much time at b&n. mark, my friend who randomly runs marathons, is going to start running with me, which is good because mark runs 7 minute miles and will push me. 8 miles left to train and only 3 months left. today's mileage: 4.25 miles. seriously, it's time for bed.